Home Sweet Home! Almost｡｡

YAAAY! I'm going home next week! The first thing I'm going to do is eat some Febo!! (dutch snackbar) craaaaving for some fries! O_O I feel kinda bad that I haven't been posting about NY. I mean, I've been here for almost a month now =/ But I didn't do much here either. I mean, I did have fun though don't get me wrong. I actually want to stay here but due to some circumstances I have to go back. I do miss home though. Hope that I've been missed too? =P *emo*

Anyways, I haven't been sleeping well lately. That's why I'm still up now. And tomorrow is my bdaaay YAY! We're going to see a Halloween Parade. And the next day is Janet timeee. Ohyeah and I found out that Se7en performed at Madison Square TT0TT｡｡｡｡ I think it was last year but still OMG! I always find out things way too late. If Se7en or DBSK are performing in Europe or USA｡｡PLEASE! LET - ME - KNOW! they really should give Holland a chance. I mean, Miyavi is pretty big too right, and his concert was sold out. I read that people were waiting in front of the building a day before the concert just to get a good spot.

That's the down side of Holland. You can't get seats, you just have to be lucky to get great spots. I would pay a few bucks more if they guaranteed me that I would sit in front. Right? Anyways, I suddenly have the urge to go back to my warm bed.

take care people! x

ALL MY GIRLS AT THE PARTY . . ♬

I am going to Janet Jackson's concert on nov 1!! =D W00T? I'm watching her old concert now on dvd, and she is such a great performer. I reaaally really hope I'm not sick then (too personal to tell why I'm making that assumption), so wish me luck you guys =D

JUST RANTING

Ok, today I'm just gonna rant about several things. BTW, I noticed.. I haven't been blogging about NY yet =0 I'll do that from now on.

First of all, I'm getting kinda pissed off. I send my phone to be repaired, but I was suppose to get it 2 weeks ago =S And I haven't heard anything from them. They said I would get an email when it's done, but nothing, nada. If I don't see my phone back, there are lives at stake then (>s< ) !! I miss my bebeee =(

Anyways, speaking of electronic malfunctions, my ipod is starting to die on me too. Everytime I plug it in my laptop, it's trippin'. (I don't know how to explain it in English, but itwon't do anything anymore until the battery is empty). I've treated it with all my love though =( Maybe something happened to it when my bag was lost for 2 months =x eheh ^-^'' OH WELL! I really ｡｡ REALLY need to update my ipod music ♬. I have horrible songs like Macarena on it, because before I left Holland, I didn't have the time to organize my music, so I just put all my songs of my laptop on it. Ok, I'm gonna update my ipod TODAY! RIGHT NOW!｡｡｡ ok, after I ate lunch.

You know what I find annoying? I'll give a good example. I'm not dissing my uncle or something, I'm just taking him as an example. When my aunt says something like; let's go to the museum!, he will then say: ''Crystal doesn't like the museum''. I'm like｡｡ dude｡｡u know me how well? I love museums, as long as it's an interesting one. I hate it when people 'decide' for me like that, if they don't even know me well. And then he looks surprised if I say I do like it. And he does that with a lot more things. What does he think I am? Some dead zombie that doesn't like anything? =.= I usually don't show much of my personality, but once you get to me (and I like you), you will see I'm a caring person who is jolly. I still have a hard time showing that sometimes, because I'm so shy =.=

Speaking of shyness, I have my good ol' pals to take advantage of that >_> haha they always tease me. For example, I'm gonna take it back to 2007, my birthday. They know I don't like it if they stare at me, so they sometimes do it on purpose. And we were on our way to my house, and when we got out of the bus｡｡ they all stared at me like a bunch of zombies T_T there were like 15 people staring at me O_O and my lovely boyfriend of course didn't help me out. So, they like to make fun of my weaknesses. But I don't mind, hopefully it will take away my shyness bit by bit. Love them!

What else｡｡ ohyeah, I'm really starting to think about what I have to do with xmas =/ if I celebrate it in NY, there's a big chance that my bf won't be able to join me. If I stay in Holland, I will miss a big opportunity to celebrate xmas with my family in NY. That won't happen again probably. Ok let's make a list of the positives and the negatives:

♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥

New York
✓ with my family
✓ I will see snow
✓ ice skating @ CP
✓ time Square tree

✖ w/o my boyfriend
✖ feeling lonely

♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡

Netherlands
✓ with my ''family-in-law''
✓ with my boyfriend

✖ miss family meeting
✖ family will kill me
✖ snow & skating

♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥

Seems like it's best to go to New York right? ｡｡ *sigh* I don't know what to do =( have to think it through. Neways, that's it for now. I'll probably blog today again, I want to eat now =P

xoxo

WANNABES

I don't get it why people are being so frustrated about ''wannabes'', and make such a fuss about it.

For example, if a white person watches anime, listens to JRock, uses some J. words when speaking.. he's a wannabe.

But what really defines a wannabe? To stereotype the Japanese a bit; they eat sushi a lot, watch anime, read manga, play on their PSP and NDS in the subway, listen to JPOP, collect anime dolls, play games a lot and etc etc. But if a white person does all these things, why is he considered a wannabe? You don't call a Japanese a wannabe if he listens to R&B, eats KFC, wear Sean John clothes, and says things like ''that's dope, that's tight'', or whatever kids say these days. Why is someone a wannabe if they have the same habits or interests?

I would call someone a wannabe J. if he would go under surgery for his eyes, wears slippers in the house, wear kimonos, learn the Japanese language, eat ramen on a daily basis, find watermelon a HUGE treat, watch anime, read manga, being creepy by taking pictures of kawaii girls, bow when thanking and greeting someone, get a shiba dog, and all that other crap japanese people do. THEN they would be a wannabe.

But why be angry about it? If I was Japanese, I would be proud that people of another culture would want to be the same ethnicity as me, instead of thinking: omg they're so fake, they want to be like us. Let's waste our time by laughing about it and post mean comments!''.

I mean, you don't really see white or black people wanting to be Filipino or anything. Not that I've seen, at least. The things that Japan create (the styles, electronics etc) are just way cooler than other countries to most people. That's why people love Japan. Some people just like it because it's ''in'' but whatever you know? let people be who they want to be =]

Ohyeah, and the thing I also don't get.. If a Chinese is acting like a ''wannabe Japanese'', nobody complains about it. But if a white person does it, it's all like: ''wow look at him being a wannabe, he's so lame''. Just because the Chinese is Asian, he has more ''right'' to act wannabe J...? Weird how the people in this world think.

EMO MOMENT

｡｡ I'm really starting to miss my friends =( I miss movie nights, even baking pies voor Wook =x='', going to Amsterdam and hang out with my moei moei. I think I'll be back begin december so that's still a loooong time.

I also miss snow a lot ｡｡ walking in the snow and making snowman's. Holding a snowball fight. Feeling the snow on my cheeks. Watching at our beautiful garden filled with it. I hope we will have a good winter this year!

Free Hugs

I loooove getting and giving hugs! Sometimes I really have the urge to hug my friends but I don't do it 'cause well ｡｡ they already think I'm weird and I'm too shy anyways (^ω^ )''｡｡ but if I would see one of them people with Free Hugs signs, I would run up to them, *jump*, and give em a big hug ^~^

SOME PEOPLE -_-''｡｡

Waaaah Danibeth (Daniel & RB) are leaving today =( But anyways, some people are so damn rude =/ The cab was in the way, and there were a couple of people waiting behind it. This guy had no patience and started to yell things like; ''get the FUCK out of the way #$*(@)#$%!'' =.= some people have no patience at all. And if you're in a hurry, just ｡｡ eto｡｡ push the horn =x='' anyways, why do you have to use cuss and stuff? Just no manners. tsk

영원히 IN MY HEART｡｡

Like the stars shining in the sky,
Our feelings won't dissapear.

Even if our hands become separated,
the two of us won't forget this｡｡

Crystal + Sanrio = Madness

Omgosh, I need to have a restraining order from Sanrio stuff =x='' I keep on buying and buying. Instead of buying more important things like clothes, shoes and bags｡｡ I end up buying Hello Kitty stuff ^~^'' anyways, so I bought this kawaii ipod case at Claire's today ($15). cute huh? ^-^ and a throw-away camera from HK. Ahh my addiction is becoming worse! Help me guys!

Clumsy girl ( >x< );

I was at the bookstore, and I wanted to grab a Death Note book to see what it looks like. But as I was grabbing volume 1, the other books fell of the shelf T-T'' And I was holding other stuff in my hand, so I couldn't catch them. I put the books back, then other books fell again! -x-'' ｡｡ and that wasn't even the last time. they fell for the 3rd time! I think that people we're thinking: what is she doing?! I felt so stupid! Things like this always happen to me =.= And some guy that was working there was probably on his period, because he was pretty annoyed when I asked him something I didn't understood. Ohh well! You can't get the clumsiness out of a girl. Once a fool, always a fool =P

''pimped'' my DS

My DS was started to get a little boring, so I decided to pimp it up a bit. The last layout I had was made in Japan by some guy, but I didn't have much to pick from because they ran out of cute stickers. I left the bunny though, because I like it. I bought the stickers at Kinokuniya.

HARAJUKU ♥ LOVERS ♥ BABY ~ LOVE

Gwen has a fragrance line and I totally love it! I don't really know exactly what the deal is, but (I think) it's under the line Harajuku Lovers and it has different kind of fragrances. It has Love, G, Baby, Lil'Angel, and Music. I chose for Love and it smells goood <3! Baby is also one of my favorites. Check out www.hlfragrance.com for more! Love the website ^-^

My virgin shoes got raped!

argghhh omgosh >0< I bought new nikes so I thought 'yeah baby!'! fresh nd all. but my auntie wore them right away because her feet hurt. I haven't even worn them myself yet. now they totally don't feel hot anymore. I know I'm such a crybaby =P but they were still my virgin shoes, and she raped em >0< need to buy new ones.

ps, I didnt mean it in a spoiled brat way =P im not angry at my aunt or anything.

The Peninsula

I went to the Peninsula yesterday with my auntie, and we had so much fun ^~^ we had a great talk about our lives, and I really got to know her better. Besides that, it's a lovely place to have a drink too! It was on the roof top. I really recommend it, but I forgot the street though.

PS, I had SUCH an awkward moment in the elevator =/ there were these 2 people who were a bit tipsy (I totally saw it), and they were kinda into each other, I knew for sure. But it was really quiet in the elevator and I haaaate those kind of moments. I really wanted to laugh out loud, but they would probably think I'm some kind of retard, so I really had to hold it in -_- gosh I hate those kind of moments. That was one of the 2 longest minutes in my life.

Cinnamoroll Quiz, quite accurate ('x' )

2008年 10月9日 Baka wa shinanakya naoranai｡｡

It seems like the minutes fly by in a day, but that I'm stuck in time. The days keep repeating themselves over and over again. Without him by my side life seems to have no meaning, yet I can't bring myself to go back to the place where I actually belong. Tears keep flowing, with no one to dry them for me. Solitudinous has taken me over, like a dark shadow you can't escape from. I don't want to face reality anymore, because I'm afraid to be dissapointed again. I'd rather run away from my problems and stay in the dark, than having false hope. He was the one that brought me back to life, when I felt my heart died. But now it's slowly losing strength again, with him out of my sight. Will I ever feel happiness again? Shirimasen｡｡ I long for his presence so badly, but my stubborn mind is holding me back. ''In order to be happy again, be strong!"', That's what I've been told. I can't find that kind of strength in me, so I just hopelessly wander around, hoping for a miracle｡｡

『동방신기／ L o v e I n T he I c e 』

こわい KOWAIII ! (≧0≦)

waaaah I'm scared >0<''!! I'm hearing these weird ghosts sounds coming from outside. I can't sleep ( '^' ) ｡｡ Luckily I have my nintendog ♥ Megumi next to me xD nhaha (like she could save me =.='') I'm feeling really sad. I had a fight with someone today, and have been thinkin' about it all day. Well, anyways, just wanted to blog a bit. // (=3=) *kissu*

update: WAHHH now it sounds like someone is trying to break in through the window ='( but that's not possible 'cause I'm at the 53th floor. *calm down* this is gonna be a long night =.=

My Secret Crush (o'-'o )

SHIA LABEOUF & AARON YOO.

Okay, my friends always find my taste weird but that never stops me =P gosh I here my friends minds already thinking: ''Shia..? SHIA?! for real, Crystal? o.O'' Everyone has his own weird little secrets, I'm just not ashamed for who I am and what I like ^-^=P I just saw the movie Eagle Eye, and Shia was amazing! =| My god, that movie was good! It was an intense movie, one of the best I've seen. Shia is amazing in ittt! (^~^o) hihi. Oh and I just thought about Aaron, 'cause they played in Disturbia together. Aaron = (◠D◠ )

The Revenge of Cooking Mama (+_+)

If you read my post ''Princess Kitch, my butt!'' (august), you'll know what I'm talking about.

Remember the anger I had towards Cooking Mama 1? I hated the game, it was mentally torturing me (>o<) ｡｡ BUT! I wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt when I bought Cooking Mama 2 today. I thought, maybe is this version better. I was happy ^-^ ｡｡ Till I got home ｡｡ I tried to open the box, but I couldn't open it｡｡｡｡｡｡｡｡ it took me 5 minutes to open it｡｡｡｡ it took me 5 damn minutes to open a frikkin DS box !! ('0' )(X.X) My anger was coming all back to me.

But I gotta be honest, Cooking Mama 2 is way better than the first one. It looks a lot more cheery, and there is a lot more things to do with. So I got love for part 2, and part 1 can still bleep off! *punch* (o'^')-o

Update! Sanrio, Juicy Couture & More

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AAAH I have so much to tell! I haven't been sitting on my butt all day the last couple of days! I always jump from one subject to another, so it might be confusing to read =P

Ok so first, yay? There is a Juicy Couture shop opening soon here and I can't wait till it's finished! and I saw a Sanrio store on Broadway, but it was closed =[ *wheeps* I'll come back there next week. And I went to Queens today =P it feels like I went to the mild version of a ''hood''. We went to eat at a filipino restaurant, and aaaah I missed halo-halo =3! Let's see.. OMG! shoot me, I saw a hawt bag at Cavalli! WANT IT =[ it's almost my bday people sooo .. haha jaykay. Hmm I forgot what I wanted to tell (•ิo•ิ )'' ｡｡ oh, and I bought new ds games! Harvest Moon Cute, Cooking Mama 2 and Nintendogs (Lab & Friends). Ok, I'm done talking (･ω･'') haha I wanted to tell more, but I don't remember anymore. I'll blog tomorrow again!

(^3^)~♥

homesick . . (>x< )

I really like it here, I ♥ manhattan. But I'm starting to miss my friends and my hubby =( It's getting pretty lonely out here. *I need a hug* 0_0 Luckily, my cousin and her bf are coming here next week =D YAY! And I really hope I have my phone back then ><''

JapanC Exhibition

There was an exhibition on 10 w. 56th street, and when I was walking the street I saw Hello Kitty in my eyecorner! Of course I had to check it out! 8] Unfortunately, I saw some stuff that weren't for sale (too bad!), and they were so cute! I did buy these cute things. If you got the chance to go there, go do it! Its till november 1st! :]

(^3^)~♥

Nintendo DSI *WANT ONE!*

Click here for the article about the DSi
Click here for the video conference about the DSi

Feeling ashamed

''We live in an atmosphere of shame. We are ashamed of everything that is real about us; ashamed of ourselves, of our relatives, of our incomes, of our accents, of our opinion, of our experience, just as we are ashamed of our naked skins. - George Bernard Shaw''

It's a shame that people feel ashamed of who they are, or what they do. People get too caught up of what people think of them. I admit, I used to be like that. But it's just a damn waste of energy and time to worry about what other people might think. You live your life for yourself, not for others. So why worry too much? You're not gonna see those people again, and they won't remember you if you did something stupid.

Ohyeah, and some men say: ''I can never get a woman like that, she's way too good for me''. Men with easy/low jobs say that. I personally think the reason why women don't choose those kind of men (not all of them) because those men don't have enough confidence and that's a turn off. If a man could've achieved more in life, it's just a waste don't you think? It's not because they don't earn enough money, it's about how you present yourself. Ok, of course there are some women who want a guy with a lot of money, but not every woman is like that. But women just want a guy that can take care of his family, give them stability in life =]

xoxo